chelebelle

Tim

2007-03-12T23:50:15Z

Juvenile5545 (6:08:55 PM): hi

MissChele16 (6:09:05 PM): Hey

Juvenile5545 (6:09:14 PM): whats up

MissChele16 (6:09:30 PM): Nothing just working right now

MissChele16 (6:09:35 PM): what's good with you?

Juvenile5545 (6:09:42 PM): just got home from work

MissChele16 (6:10:48 PM): I'm sooo tired!!!!

Juvenile5545 (6:11:13 PM): lol me 2.....i was exhausted all day, just from the weekend

MissChele16 (6:11:58 PM): I didn't even do anything this weekend ;c I didn't even drink last night, just hung out with Dayna and the boys way too late.

MissChele16 (6:12:35 PM): I always get way to involved in the video games

Juvenile5545 (6:12:48 PM): lol

Juvenile5545 (6:13:16 PM): what happened to calling me last night?

Juvenile5545 (6:08:55 PM): hi

MissChele16 (6:09:05 PM): Hey

Juvenile5545 (6:09:14 PM): whats up

MissChele16 (6:09:30 PM): Nothing just working right now

MissChele16 (6:09:35 PM): what's good with you?

Juvenile5545 (6:09:42 PM): just got home from work

MissChele16 (6:10:48 PM): I'm sooo tired!!!!

Juvenile5545 (6:11:13 PM): lol me 2.....i was exhausted all day, just from the weekend

MissChele16 (6:11:58 PM): I didn't even do anything this weekend ;c I didn't even drink last night, just hung out with Dayna and the boys way too late.

MissChele16 (6:12:35 PM): I always get way to involved in the video games

Juvenile5545 (6:12:48 PM): lol

Juvenile5545 (6:13:16 PM): what happened to calling me last night?

MissChele16 (6:14:11 PM): It was 11:30 by the time I got ready to, I didn't realize it was so late and I never call anyone after 10 unless I know they're already out.

Juvenile5545 (6:15:16 PM): suuuure....youve prolly lost interest in me after yesterday huh lol

MissChele16 (6:15:54 PM): aw, that's far from it. more interested if anything

Juvenile5545 (6:16:09 PM): lol yea right

Juvenile5545 (6:19:21 PM): so it doesnt bother you that im not the wild and crazy type that you are?

MissChele16 (6:20:24 PM): lol, I'm not that wild and crazy.. but, no it doesn't bother me. It's a good thing. I think you might be surprised by how shy I can be at times.

Juvenile5545 (6:20:52 PM): aww haha

Juvenile5545 (6:21:40 PM): although u were in my imagination all night last night haha

MissChele16 (6:22:33 PM): oh yeah? Nice to see I leave a lasting impression. It is what I was going for, afterall.

Juvenile5545 (6:22:51 PM): hahah

Juvenile5545 (6:37:05 PM): you stopped talkin to me

MissChele16 (6:37:37 PM): Sorry babe, Just trying to get a couple of loose ends tied that I was working on

Juvenile5545 (6:37:54 PM): thats ok.

Juvenile5545 (6:44:17 PM): got any plans for the weekend?

MissChele16 (6:44:42 PM): Not yet, all I know is I'm getting drunk! St.Patty's day!!

Juvenile5545 (6:44:54 PM): lol me 2....i start at 9am

MissChele16 (6:45:29 PM): wow, that's earrrly. I think I'm going to have to wait until 9:15 at the least.

Juvenile5545 (6:45:40 PM): lol

Juvenile5545 (6:46:28 PM): well i hope i get to see you for once

MissChele16 (6:47:05 PM): me too, I'll be out without a doubt. Dayna and I were just talking about it last night.

Juvenile5545 (6:49:37 PM): good....cuz saturday ill be at the k of c, rbi, and other bars all day and night (if im not passed out yet lol)

MissChele16 (6:51:21 PM): gosh, I hope you don't pass out before I get to see you! I would be forced to call up the chick who gave me her number the last night I didn't get to ;P

Juvenile5545 (6:52:03 PM): wait huh? lol

MissChele16 (6:53:05 PM): Yeah, that night this chick would not leave me alone!!! I was trying to leave Jeff's when Dayna came and she totally pinned me up against a wall so she could tuck her number in my bra.

MissChele16 (6:53:08 PM): it was crazy

Juvenile5545 (6:53:48 PM): what the hell? like a lesbian? lol

MissChele16 (6:54:58 PM): Yes, like a lesbian. I was honestly like. a little scared of her! she was really pretty, but she was definitely built well. lol

Juvenile5545 (6:55:08 PM): lol

Juvenile5545 (6:55:14 PM): please tell me yer not bi

MissChele16 (6:56:20 PM): no, and I don't think a lot of the girls who say they are really are. I think they think it makes them look more attractive and it's a big game. I like my boys to much to pretend otherwise even if they did like it.

Juvenile5545 (6:56:46 PM): good haha

MissChele16 (6:57:50 PM): yay, really? a guy who really isn't looking for that. Three gold stars for you.

Juvenile5545 (6:58:19 PM): damn, i got alotta gold stars from you

Juvenile5545 (6:58:36 PM): is there a prize for getting this many? haha

MissChele16 (7:00:28 PM): haha, sure there's a prize. anything special you'd like

Juvenile5545 (7:01:28 PM): yea a blowjob would rock lol

Juvenile5545 (7:01:34 PM):

Juvenile5545 (7:01:37 PM): hahah

MissChele16 (7:05:08 PM): you're cute.

Juvenile5545 (7:05:26 PM): hehe

MissChele16 (7:06:10 PM): I just wonder sometimes how well you'd get along with my friends

Juvenile5545 (7:08:43 PM): who are most of yer friends

MissChele16 (7:09:05 PM): lol, most of the black guys in hornell.

Juvenile5545 (7:10:14 PM): lol oh i see

Juvenile5545 (7:10:23 PM): yea, guess we have totally different friends huh

MissChele16 (7:12:27 PM): Yeah, Dayna and I were talking about it last night. I mean, I get along with everybody and anybody and I hang out with a lot of different types of people, but for the main it's those boys and sometimes the guys I talk to don't like that at all.

Juvenile5545 (7:13:37 PM): you mean guys dont like that u hang out with guys?

MissChele16 (7:15:20 PM): right, paticularty those guys, they don't have the best reputations when it comes to girls, and even though I'm not like that with them, to them I'm one of the boys, I guess it doesn't always look right

Juvenile5545 (7:16:41 PM): hmm yea thats interesting

MissChele16 (7:20:18 PM): Now you've made me nervous.

Juvenile5545 (7:20:28 PM): whys that

MissChele16 (7:21:48 PM): because I don't want you to think badly of me because of who I associate myself with.

Juvenile5545 (7:26:14 PM): i dont judge anyone that way

Juvenile5545 (7:28:05 PM): just makes me wonder if itd really work between us

Juvenile5545 (7:31:12 PM): do u really like me as much as u claim u do?

MissChele16 (7:31:22 PM): I don't say things I don't mean.

Juvenile5545 (7:31:40 PM): haha then i take that as a yes?

MissChele16 (7:33:27 PM): Yes, lol/

Juvenile5545 (7:33:37 PM): aww haha

Juvenile5545 (7:36:53 PM): well i think im gonna go for a run

MissChele16 (7:37:59 PM): okay, but seriously... don't cancel me out already just because of my friends. It's why I knew I needed to bring it up. I'll talk to you later.

Juvenile5545 (7:38:32 PM): come on, id never write you off like that

Juvenile5545 (7:38:45 PM): i will ttyl hopefully

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woohoo

2006-12-18T20:58:37Z

Kaytie told me that if Tavion acted the way Jeff does to me, she wouldn't worry about anything. She would not put any relationship pressure on him or even ask for anything more. He's over here almost every night, he calls me several times a day. I have nothing to worry about, so I'm wasting my time.
I think she might be right, so I am going to chill out on stressing about it.

Gossip:
Sarah is pregnant.
Julie's daughter ran away.
Alicia's boyfriend's baby momma is pregnant again. Is it his?
Vessie is getting busted for underage drinking.
Wesley is in trouble for sleeping with a minor.
Mike beat some frat boy up in Alfred with a crowbar.

Oh.

2006-12-07T03:43:02Z

God. Jeff. I wonder how much longer I can keep doing this.

I found some heart.

2006-11-27T17:53:24Z

Awhile ago, Jeff sent me a picture of himself.
I told him I had been thinking about txt'ing him some but making them more racier in content.
I never actually found the courage to do it...

Until today.
It was great.
His response made me unbeleivably happy.
Much as his attitude towards me the last couple of days.
He is dripping with sentiments. Maybe that's why I finally did it.

Same story, different day.

2006-11-24T15:35:08Z

It's 2:09 and I'm waiting for him.
I stayed home because I he said if nothing was really poppin' he'd be over at 10:30 and he seemed awful concerned about where I was going to be tonight, like.. you know, he hoped I was staying home so he could come over.
I should have gone to the party with Matt. I know he's getting very annoyed with me.
The problem is, I REALLY don't want to blow him off till i know where things are going with Jeff.
I don't want to ruin something that could turn out good because I'm waiting around for Jeff.

.. but I will.

what?

2006-11-18T15:52:23Z

I am completely in love with Mr.Marcus. I think he is the sexiest porn star on the planet. I told Jeff I didn't care who I was with, If Mr.Marcus wanted me, I'd have to stop whatever I was doing and jump on it. He told me no. He wouldn't allow it. He also told me that my ex-boyfriend KC was saying how much he wanted to have sex with me again and he told him that ( sorry for the blunt language ) that my pussy was all his.

Now. Why isn't he my boyfriend? Can't get jealous or make demands without commitment. Sorry, Jeff. I don't care how much I like you. I will do my own thing how I want to.

Question. Why do girls pretend they aren't into sex just as much as dudes are?

:(

2006-11-17T20:41:29Z

Today was my grandfather's funeral. I'm really not sure how to feel. I have so much guilt inside of me concerning him, yet even some animosity. This is the man who said when I was raped, "men have needs." This is the man who made that rapist his best man in his wedding. Yet, this was my Grandfather, who in his own way did give me alot.

I wonder..

2006-11-11T04:07:36Z

I wonder if Jeff's lack of calls these last two days is part of his plan to let me go gently.

It's funny.

2006-11-10T14:47:15Z

So..
Matt did end up calling. Twice. So, I called him back at 12:30 hoping he'd be to tired to really talk. No such luck. I had to feign being extremely tired and excuse myself to bed.
Jeff did not call me once yesterday.
I called him on my break. Bad reception.
Called him on my lunch. Bad reception.
txt'd him at 11:30 to ask if I was going to see him last night. He just wrote back "maybe"
so, finally at 1:00 I txt'd him and told him I was going to bed and locking the door.
Guess he couldn't let me sleep alone because he came over...
but he was being so weird...
He confuses the fuck out of me. I hate liking him the way I do.
Maybe I should give Matt a chance, at least he pursues me.

That's right, I brought all the boys to the yard.

2006-11-10T01:01:46Z

Work sucked. We have a new girl. Vickie. I just kept calling her "that girl" and "Nickie" because she annoyed me.

I miss Jeff.
Surprised?
Matt didn't call.
Surprised?

no, not really.

Just like I said.

2006-11-09T14:33:09Z

Matt came. Jeff called. Matt left. Jeff came. Why is Matt in the mix again?

Late.

2006-11-09T00:54:22Z

You don't call someone 30 minutes after you were supposed to be at thier house if you know you're going to be late. Call them before, I would be so much more understanding in that circumstance. Matt is almost always late. Kirsten warned me he would be. I'm not into guys who take more time to get ready then I do. I'm a last minute planner, if it takes you an hour to primp you get left behind.

Boys!

2006-11-08T03:06:22Z

I think Matt is getting it that I'm blowing him off, so I agreed to hang out tommorow night. I think it's a bad thing. The whole time I'll be waiting for him to leave so Jeff can come over.

I told him.

2006-11-07T18:33:09Z

I told him how I feel. I told him he frustrates me. I told him he was fucking with my head. He asked me what I wanted him to do. Nothing. What can you do?

That's right.

2006-11-03T16:31:44Z

HA!
Calling me at 2 am. Can't get enough?
Better make up your mind soon, clock is ticking and I won't be missing you forever.
I will move on.
I had you, I can get two just like you.
( or so I tell him, when i can barely tell myself that )
Honestly, when he told me I got under his skin and he doesn't know how to get over me I almost cried.
Just like when he told me he loved me; but I won't say it back.
It's not going to change the situation. He's leaving, I'm staying.
I want the emotional toll as low as possible.

So Fresh. So Clean.

2006-11-03T06:48:07Z

God. I fucking miss him already and Matt? He's no subsitute.

my22years @ 2006-11-02T16:38:00

2006-11-02T20:38:53Z

I did not want to hear that this morning!
I do not want to get over him.
I do not want to look elsewhere.
If I wanted something different, I would have been chasing it.
I know how to break up with someone, I do it quite well.
Not my fault they've all come chasing back.
Off topic.
Anyways, It's only been two days without seeing him while we were on great terms..
How am I going to get through this week? This month.
I regret a million times over letting myself fall, especially when I knew this was coming.

Is this sad?

2006-11-01T18:52:11Z

Both guys I'm interested in/dating live with thier parents.
One has a great reason, well not great.. but no choice.
The other? Daddy's a dentist and when the girlfriend bailed he headed home.
What do ya think?

Lord. Lord. Lord.

2006-10-27T15:04:04Z

Too many people think they need to be my big brother/sister.
I have gotten this far okay. I won't say I did it alone, but sometimes people need to let you make your own mistakes.
Afterall, I've had too many mistakes turn out to be a good thing.
If nothing else, a learning experience.

They lose thier minds, the way I wind.

2006-10-25T14:41:46Z

At the very beginning of my 21st year, I was set to marry my lovely Liam, whom I will always adore, but in the middle of my 22nd year.. I'm single, not even contemplating marraige, and I'm a completely different person. I have experienced so much life in this past year. I have evolved in so many ways. I have to wonder about my mental well being after looking at how many sad hours I spent glued to a computer screen relying on people I'd never meet to direct my emotional well being. I'm looking foward to seeing how much more growth and change I can experience still. I just hope I don't let old obstacles lay any influence.